As hard as it is to imagine, The Cross Eyed Blog reached its two year point a few weeks ago and here I am still writing. It would seem that I would have run out of ideas or things to talk about in that amount of time, but somehow God always seems to convict me one way or another of a subject to write about.
A friend asked me last week if I ever get tired of it. Honestly speaking, yes. I do get weary sometimes of doing the task, but I know God has called me to it. I am certain of that, but for how long? During those spells of burnout, I always turn to God in prayer. Do you still want me to do this? Does it even matter what I have to say anyway? Please let me know what you want me to do.
Every time I have been at that point, that day or at least within a week, I will get emails, comments, or someone who comes up to me to tell me how the blog has changed something in their lives. A woman who is now committed to reading her bible every day. A person who has been encouraged during a hard time in her life. A tip that allows a stay at home mom to run her home more effectively. In those moments, I can see that God can use this blog to go beyond anything I could do on my own and to reach people I could never meet.
I have to admit it scares me to death sometimes. Matthew 12:36, ESV says, “I tell you, on the day of judgement people will give account for every careless word they speak.” Who am I to write anything to anyone? It is very important for me to write truth or what I think to be the truth according to what God has shown me and His word.
Thank God that He is there amongst my doubts. Will there be a third year of blogging? Only God knows, but I will continue to follow as long as He leads it.